Wednesday, February 6, 2008

four


“Society is like a stew. If you don't stir it up every once in a while then a layer of scum floats to the top.”

Edward Abbey (American Writer whose works, set primarily in the southwestern United States, reflect an uncompromising environmentalist philosophy. 1927-1989)

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

three


Happyness, the word of all words, the inconceivable concept so alien to most people
Happyness in belonging, humans recognized by their class, their status, their race, their group, their party, their color, their language and happy because of that.
Individuals as lonely ships in a thundering storm, seafaring disgraces to most people, madness on legs for denying the "common truth" the accepted "path to happyness".
Belonging as a sense of safety never completely achieved, an interrupted coitus. Happyness for having is desperation for losing. Belonging as fear of non belonging.
I am I, me , myself... and you are supposed to be you, damn it, not something else. I want YOU, what YOU think, how YOU feel, I want to grasp YOUR soul, shove it in my mouth, chew it and savour it like a rib from Adam. I want YOUR soul as nothing else exist but souls, roaming, solitary and united. One thing with the cosmos and among themselves, unity in diversity, the uniqueness of ones being, every moment a different colour bouncing off their souls, like glittering stars sailing on their milky way

two


in the middle of something. You start writing never knowing where it would end
This feeling of anger, rushing through me towards me. Projected failure, inconsistencies of living a life never begun
I
Where is I?
Should I return, should I spare myself.
Where does this fire comes from?
How to tame myself, chains loose, cage broken, devil amok.
Longing for a full breath, a true smile, faith.
How to forgive oneself?
Why also?
How to get reason and practice to collide, reason and faith to coexist, a stable ground

We sail, we never dock, and sometimes we get ourself in open sea as an act of faith only to see faith abandon us. And we are left stranded, fighting the waves which keep coming.

I need a rock, to crash onto and on which to build a new ship...a better one this time